A day of remembrance. A day to endure.
If you are a Veteran, Service Member, or loved one of either you have either felt or witnessed the impact of military-related loss. This Memorial Day is likely to be even more difficult for everyone. After a year of isolation, death, and difficulty – mental health struggles have only increased. Looking toward this years’ intersection of the past year and this holiday has a possibility of being significantly more difficult for our focus population.
I could go into an entire conversation about the difference of Memorial Day and Veterans Day, the struggle of being told “Happy Memorial Day” while grieving, and what it’s like to hear people more concerned about being able to go to a barbecue… but there are already plenty of articles written about that all over the internet. The way I would like to honor our fallen this Memorial Day is to discuss grief, ways of coping, and ways to assist others who are struggling.
Carrying Grief
Grief is a complicated struggle.
It does not have an expiration date, it does not just go away, and it impacts our worldview. It is more difficult and complex than the social understanding of the 5 stages of grief would have you believe. Even psychiatrist Elisabeth Kübler-Ross has discussed frustration of the misunderstanding of the model. It was never meant to be a step-by-step program or the only way to view grief. Grief is so much more complicated and unique to each individual person and loss. An individual may have vastly different experiences to types of losses in their lives; from a partner, friend, battle buddy, pet, colleague, parent, or child – none of these are going to feel the same in our heart, body, and mind. They impact our lives differently, but each loss is still impactful – still meaningful.
The observation and practices of differing cultures have a significant impact on how grief is expressed and experienced. Some traditions may focus on the celebration of life, whereas others sit in the grief for days on end. Recognizing there are many ways of grieving is important in holding space for others. Especially in a world where there are so many expectations placed upon the griever to hurry up and move on. If only it were that easy.
We cannot silence the pain we feel in grief for long. In some way, fashion, or form it will be heard; and the reality is it needs to be heard. Bessel van der Kolk talks about this in relation to trauma, but it is just as important in grief: Your body remembers, it knows the pain you have experienced. During trauma and grief, our stress levels rise, which increases cortisol production, thus impacting the rest of our body (for example: brain functions for your respiratory and nervous systems become affected, as well as your heart rate). Recognizing how your body reacts to stress is important because grief and trauma overlap significantly, often walking hand in hand with one another. The idea of safety becomes a difficult concept to imagine or feel. Relying on old comforts of believing your worst fears won’t come true no longer hold value. Your worldview may feel more dangerous or volatile. These individual struggles often cycle off each other, when a trauma is triggered – the grief is right beside or after it, and vice versa. Recognizing these as real issues that need to be discussed – acknowledged – is incredibly important in moving forward.
Expectations we place on ourselves, and that others place on us make it more difficult to just be in our grief. The feeling of needing to get back to “normal” is overwhelming and exhausting. Well-meaning statements about time healing all and things happening for a reason are infuriating and invalidating at the same time. In the process of initial grief, we often find an additional loss of the people we have relied on. People who don’t know how, or cannot be there for us in our difficult time. A re-arranging of everyday life takes place, but we are expected to pick back up where we left off before our world changed? Finding ways to manage the stressors, changes, and emotions are necessary in integrating the loss we have experienced.
Coping in a pandemic?!
It can be hard to find the best ways of coping with our grief. Especially since places are closed, gatherings are limited, and oh, there is still a global pandemic happening. To some, it may feel as if there aren’t a lot of ways to honor the people we have lost, and to an extent that’s true right now. It just means we need to adapt and overcome to find new, creative ways of honoring those we have lost. Here are some main points to focus on while coping with grief:
Acknowledge the pain:
Recognizing and naming the concerns we have help us move toward a state of healing.
It gives it less power over us.
Understand that grief can trigger many unexpected emotions.
Reach out to loved ones: Completely isolating can allow the grief the space to burrow further inside.
Self-Care:
Should go without saying, but it is one of the first things to go. Grief is powerful and can/will stop us completely in our tracks.
Getting sleep, eating (healthy if possible, but at all is good), and physical activity – walks, hikes, bike rides – if possible.
Inside your grief, try to remember to put yourself first, the cliché of putting on your own mask is incredibly relevant here.
Tell the story. Humans are storytellers, evidenced throughout history; but that doesn’t mean you are ready to tell yours out loud.
Find a way to tell your story, whether it is through a conversation with a trusted person, writing it out, painting it, or any other form of artistic expression (sculpture, graphic novels, quilting, collage, found poetry, photography, culinary arts, etc.).
Give your grief a voice.
Change the narrative!
Have you thought the following?
“I won’t recover.”
“I won’t be able to move on.”
“I won’t be able to return to who I was.”
If so, I would like for you to ask yourself the following: “How could you even begin to do these things?” Powerful events such as grief absolutely changes us. To believe we can go through horrible things and nothing about our lives change? That would be concerning. Learning to integrate this loss is where the focus can be most helpful to our own narrative of our grief. Recognize who is safe to hear your story, because not everyone deserves to and not everyone is capable of hearing it.
How do I help others?
When someone we care about is hurting, we want to assist them in ways that would be *actually* supportive. I have added some guidelines and examples to help, this is by no means an exhaustive list.
Acknowledgement – It does not matter how long ago their loss was. Listen to understand not respond.
Identify Needs – Offer specific support. Not the “let me know how I can help.” This adds to the burden the griever is already feeling.
Examples:
“I would like to bring you dinner on ____. Is that okay?”
“I would like to come over and help you around the house, laundry, cleaning, whatever needs to get done. Is ____ ok to come over?”
Comfort – This is not the time for advice.
Ask yourself if the thing you’re about to say will provide comfort and support to the person grieving. If not, don’t say it.
Remember empathy and sympathy are not the same thing.
Cliches are not helpful: “everything happens for a reason,” “it gets better with time,” or “they are in a better place.” Even if you truly believe these statements, or that yes, time does change the intensity for some, it’s not appropriate.
Emotional – Name your feelings and desires in the moment and ask for consent.
Examples:
Would you like to hug them? “I would like to give you a hug, do you want one?”
Lean in/distraction: “I am here if you want to talk about it, if not I’ll just sit with you.”
Nothing to offer? “I don’t know what to say. It all feels small in comparison to what you’re going through.”
Educate Yourself – Learn about different types of grief.
If you are not a Veteran/Service Member/Loved one – research information on the experience to gain some knowledge and understanding.
Recognize there are different ways to grieve based on culture and religion. Do not assume they are compatible to your own.
Check into resources in the area for them.
Honoring Our Fallen
Finding a way to pay respects may be difficult, but it is not impossible. Here is a (not by any means exhaustive) list of things to do this year:
- If marathons/running is something you’re interested in – look online for national or local events you can participate in.
- Look into any charities that help families of the fallen and see if they have any needs you could assist with. Whether that is your time, energy, or support – they will be happy to have the help.
- Visit memorials (safely and socially distanced) and pay your respects in person.
- Reach out to people in your life who may have lost a service member/veteran and let them know you’re thinking of them.
- Plant flowers/tree in memory of someone you lost. Giving life through the pain of loss.
- Check out virtual events on social media that are honoring the fallen.
- Read and learn about minority veterans/service members who have not received the recognition they deserve for their service. Immigrant, Women, Black/African American, Indigenous American, Pacific Islander, and LBGTQIA+ Communities to name a few. Honor their sacrifices.
Last Thoughts
There are many reasons I felt this specific topic was incredibly important this year. Grief has been something we have all dealt with in various ways over the past year. There has been a collective loss of people, experiences, and things that would be too long of a list if I tried. The main point is that we have all lost something. Talking to people who have experienced significant losses this past year may find it more difficult due to the personal triggers that have arisen. Check in with yourself once you have talked to someone struggling around this Memorial Day, and allow them (and yourselves) to feel through the pain.
I also felt it was important from a personal stance. Grief is so taboo still in our culture and society that people don’t feel comfortable either talking about their own or hearing about others’ grief. As if it is somehow contagious. But it is the one thing we all have in common. We have all lost something at some point in our lives that was important. We may cope with that grief differently, but we all experience some level of it. Grief is no stranger in my life; before, during, and after my time in the Air Force I have experienced all types and levels of grief. On Memorial Day this year I will be honoring those I served beside in the states and in Iraq. I will honor my fellow service-members and friends who lost their battles with mental health, who completed suicide. I hope you will join me this year by honoring the fallen; the lost soldiers, airmen, sailors, marines, and coast guardsmen; and those who lost their own battles when they couldn’t find their way out of the darkness.
Resources
Veterans & Military Crisis Line: 1-800-273-8255, press “1”; text to 838255; chat VeteransCrisisLine.net
National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255, and stay on the line to be directed to your closest service.
Tragedy Assistance Program for Survivors (TAPS): 800-959-8277; TAPS.org
Support for anyone who has suffered the loss of a military loved one. Peer-based emotional support, grief and trauma resources, casework assistance, and connections to community based care. Support regardless of the circumstances of loss.
Books: